So Very Tired

I spent the better half of my night staring at the ceiling.
As I lay there I got to wondering, as I often do,
And as always my thoughts drifted to you.

With a small laugh and a quite cry I began to lie,
And everything was better, if only for the moment.

Now my friend I see the end.
Do you?
For if you don't then neither do I.
Please tell me, look me in the eye.
For I know you wouldn't lie….

As the sun seeks to hide behind the horizon,
My heart seeks you for shelter.
A place where it can be true,
A place where I can be with you.

Push it aside….

Why would this be what I want?
You kill me sending me to my fright,
Running faster in my flight,
And though I've caught my breathe,
It doesn't mean I'm not still running.

Perhaps I'm just stronger now,
And this pace Isn't quite as difficult as it used to be,
Or I've just slowed down.
Is it so?
Do I yet wear a frown?

Still I wonder,
If my breathing keeps slowing,
And I just keep running without knowing,
Will I die?
Suffocating under my own desires?
I suppose there's only one thing  I'm sure of,
I'm so very tired.